RAUDHA((:

had a bad day today. i dun tink i need to share it here. but since its a blog and many wants me to update- i shall post sumtink though.

anyways- wanted to thank yusman for being there for me yesterday. if it werent for u- i would probably be rotten out crying the whole day. NON-STOP. even when i am out shopping at geylang with my family and cousins. tats how bad the situation is. whenever u called- i cried coz i am greatful to god tat i found u.

i would also like to apologise for making u so worried and getting u into my problems which seems like a burden coz u are booking in today and rather than helping u to have a clear mind when u go- i made tinks worse for u. i feel really bad on tis. i shall not do it again the next time. i will keep my problems to myself and let it rot within me. i am truly sorry. i hope u would forgive me.

thing doesnt always go the way u want it and tats wat i learnt today. they may be the party tat made u upset but they wont bother if u cry till ur eyes are all dried up. clear ur own mind and tink of ur own plans for u r future... but wats the future when u dun share ur expectations of me?? what shud i do?? wat even the next step tat i shud take?? if i take my own way- would be satisfied enough?? wat do u wan from me actually?? tell me!!! i have waited for years. i suffer as a teen and now being a adult means nutink much to me....